Not today

In some certain point of our lives, we find ourselves drowning in our own pool of thought. And I found myself drowning for too long. I need to let it out and tell somebody, but i don't have a friend who would understand. It has been really hard lately and i feel like I'm going to explode due to the emotions mixed up inside me. I've been single for eight months now, it still hurts a bit, but i can manage. I just miss having someone special with me. the laughs, smiles, hugs, cuddles and kisses. I miss them all.

I  have lived my 18 years trying to please everyone. But not today.  Today I am going to please no one but myself. What's a little selfishness if all your life you tried to please others and ended up getting hurt? It's like baking a brownie pie and having it all for yourself. Adding a scoop or two of vanilla ice cream and a drizzle of chocolate ganache. A perfect anti depressant for me.